It's Juz Gongtutut

missing him n wat other nots..

2011-08-16T23:30:00.002+08:00

darling is in japan..

missing him so much..

though we watsapp every nite..

juz came bk from camerons last nite..

had a great time with qi..

love the weather man..

gonna step up for wedding preps soon..

dear church, can u like quickly confirm

the wedding date so dat

we can go ahead n plan our wedding?

i am starting to feel the jitters..

dun like the unsettled feeling of

not being able to confirm this n dat..

effectively, we have only 8 mths to prepare..

ke bu ke yi kuai yi dian!!

Simply So Blessed!!

2011-08-03T23:55:00.002+08:00

on mc today..

was resting when Kel called n told me the great news!!

we've got a queue number for the yishun natura flats!!

super excited can!!

this is our 3rd attempt!!

and we r really thankful!!

bcos these are premium flats..

n the flats are affordable!!

and the timing is perfect!!

God has provided!! again n again!!

First, kel was worried, cos his job ended in end july,

and new job starting in mid sept..

so technically, he has no pay in august,

and that means we have no money for the 2k option fee..

yet during the last month, sales shot up...

and he had more than enuf to sustain him for aug n sept..

thankful, really v v thankful..

God is juz so gd n kind to us..

wat can we say but to juz give thanks!!

officialky engaged!!

2011-06-23T00:53:00.001+08:00

Darling officially proposed last sat!! I was pleasantly surprised, as it was totally unexpected! Amazingly, the while planning involved 10 of our close frens..Emails were sent n pple were invited to join us for a 6 course dinner at Jacobs!!Then after dinner, on the pretext of gg to the toilet, everyone got up n took a flashcard each, with the words, 你愿意嫁給我嗎？ at this point, I was presented with the bouquet of flowers!! N the cake with the ring on top of it was presented!!I was totally blown away!! Of course not forgetting the song, " from this moment" playing in the background..It was really sweet, sincere n unforgettable!!The official date will only b announced in aug.. Meanwhile, time to start planning.. Peeps, stay tuned!!

love again n again..

2011-05-31T00:51:00.002+08:00

these 2 weeks have been rather tough..

n emotionally challenging..

there was a quarrel that erupted..

between 2 hot-headed females..

ha.. dat's not me..

perhaps it's due to years

of accumulated frustrations

and lack of proper communication..

though that outburst has

caused both parties to be hurt..

yet it has opened up

the doors of communication..

n i juz feel that we

really need to love one another..

felt helpless.. at the situation..

and perhaps of the closeness

between me and the 2 persons involved..

it juz feel so xin tong..

n wished that things had turned otherwise..

the other episode involved

me and a 'sheep of mine'

the episode juz

left me disappointed..

and wondering..

wat's behind dat mask?

n.. how can we truly tell

wat is a person's true character..

it left me scared.. n fearful..

of drawing close to the person..

and caring for the person..

lest i am hurt again..

i dunno wat the precious

lessons are for me to learn..

i juz noe that i need to

learn what it means to love..

all over again.. and again..

even when it hurts..

2 gong tut tuts quarrel..

2011-05-31T00:44:00.002+08:00

wat happens when 2 gong gong

tut tut persons quarrel?

one was hungry..

one got carried away with a SALE..

then the one who was hungry became angry..

decide to go home instead..

the other one was frustrated..

both were sad.. yet both walked away..

one cried.. one's heart was xin suan..

thankfully.. the love between them

kept them communicating on watsapp..

though angry, chose to speak calmly n nicely..

the words came back and forth.. back and forth..

and the rational side of them

kept each other from saying angry words..

n that also helped to build

a closer bond n understanding..

through this little episode..

sad..

2011-05-28T02:18:00.001+08:00

My heart is deeply sad n burdened.. So much has happened..I do not know what to make out of today's fight.. Perhaps it has been years of accumulated frustrations and unresolved anger..There is just so much hurt within...Pain n misunderstandings..Both parties are hurt.. I dunno wat to do..

he's bk..

2011-05-09T15:13:00.002+08:00

dad is bk today..

hopefully for gd..

actually if u ask me,

i was not exactly looking fwd to this day..

honestly, i do dread..

bcos i am fearful of going thru the same vicious cycle,

of coming out, promises given, then slowly,

bad habits return, bad company surrounds,

and before i know it, everything else is bad to square 1..

i am 32 this year, and i have been thru the prison doors

to visit him since i was very young.. i can't rem the exact age,

maybe when i was 7?

the vicious cycle has remained..

i prayed for a breakthrough..

but it seemed quite a halfhearted prayer..

if u are reading this, could u pray for us?

that there will b a tremendous breakthrough!!

i am praying that i will believe..

and truly believe it..

flat balloting results day..

2011-03-24T00:48:00.003+08:00

Tis day is a special day!!

a day to remember..

lol.. bcos it's a memorial stone..

the 1st time we balloted for flat..

and the results of the ballot are out today!!

we received the queue no 283 for 197 flats..

i was disturbed by my own response..

y is there a thankless heart?

arghh.. i wan to b truly thankful..

for His timing..

This is so cool!!

2011-03-17T12:14:00.001+08:00

Arlow!! Arlow! This is so cool! I'm trying out this eblogging stuff on my iPhone n it works!! I love it!

it's pox pox time!!

2010-11-08T21:11:00.005+08:00

was counting against all odds,

and hoping dat i won't get it..

but then.. it did..

darling came to fetch me after kidzone

when we were abt to leave..

he said, 'oh no!! seems like u're getting it!!'

and i realise red spots

were popping up all over my face..

then a trip to the doc's confirmed it..

n wif dat i got a 2 wks break..

2 wks mc rather..

1 wk has passed..

it was quite unbearable initially..

feels so terribly itchy..

n the fever was making me feel awful..

every 4 hrs i had to pop medication..

thus my rest n sleep was interrupted..

diet was reduced to porridge daily..

and lots of water..

yet i am v thankful to my mum n darling

for taking such gd care of me..

bgt liang cha for me..

fish ball soup noodles

cooked porridge for me..

right now i'm slowly recovering..

hope to go bk to wk soon..

n to go out n enjoy myself!!

it is official le..

2010-05-31T09:00:00.002+08:00

looking back, it seems trivial..

n i wonder wat it was all about..

yet at dat moment

i couldn't laugh..

but onli keep the sadness in my heart..

n the tears in my eyes..

haha.. it's official..

we had our 1st disagreement

after 2 and a half months of being together..

people ard have been asking us..

so, "have u guys quarrelled ald?"

our answer had been no..

until up to this pt..

n i couldn't figure out

wat the issue was..

now i do..

n i felt dat it has brought us closer..

to understand each other deeper..

and to cherish each other more..

we made some promises to each other too

i juz had to write this down..

the next time it happens again..

i'll remember..

no lies to be told..

n watever happens, talk it out..

let not the evil one

have a hold in our relationship.

this is our prayer..

in His Name i pray.. amen

a precious day.. wif a precious one..

2010-05-03T08:45:00.005+08:00

last nite i came home

wif lots of thots on my mind..

yet within my heart i was deeply thankful..

had spent the morning in church..

n the day wif my darling..

the words spoken dat morning

during sermon time resided in my heart..

as the speaker spoke abt

infidelity and sexual temptations

abt compromises and standing firm..

my heart was deeply grateful..

to God for giving me a man..

who chooses to honor and respect

and love me as a person..

and honor God above all else..

i felt dat it is not easy..

i was asking him..

we were saying..

it's very ez to b tempted

and fall into sin..

juz like dat..

but keeping ourselves pure..

is a commitment dat we had made..

to God and to each other..

and onli God can see us thru this..

yesterday we had talked abt some things..

abt being faithful to each other

and wat would happen if either of us

would choose to be unfaithful..

then we came to a conclusion..

dat we could juz destroy each other..

juz by dat act of betrayal of trust..

we could juz throw each other to hell..

it is reali scary.. very very scary..

then we also talked abt...

the foundation of our relationship..

is it built on the foundation of loving God..

above each other.. n all others..

dat we be spiritually connected..

before we connect on other levels..

at the end of the day..

my heart remains thankful..

bcos i noe dat he loves me deeply..

n always strives to give me the best..

of all dat he has, and all dat he can..

thank u dear.. i love u :)

a simple but enjoyable day indeed

2010-04-26T00:33:00.002+08:00

had a very simple yet

extremely enjoyable day today!!

went for 1030am svc at bpj this morning..

after dat rushed down to woodlands side..

after lunch, tk n i went for membership class..

while my beloved went home..

following, met darling at

causeway pt to walk walk..

after, we went for

our fav wafer wif ice cream...

plus a beef pie n drinks @ gelare..

seems like quite a lazy afternoon..

then we took the bus to my place..

n spend all our time there..

watching tv, reading newspapers..

n juz enjoying each other's company..

then we went to west mall, bgt some stuff

had some food at the food court..

n sat there n watched the star awards..

a simple day.. but truly enjoyable..

makes me feel like we're a married couple..

hee hee..

surely looking fwd to

more simple days ahead..

Harlow Peeps!! How are u?

2010-04-24T11:25:00.005+08:00

Harlow Peeps!!!

Haha.. i'm back again!!

It's been abt 3 weeks since i've last blogged!!

It's been an eventful 3 weeks!!

Both Kayden and Darius are born!!

Shall show u pics of these 2 beautiful babies!!

This is Kayden!!

Isn't he so cute??

so handsome boy!!

This is Kayden suntanning!!

i love this pic!!

c his pouty lips!!

hahahaha!!

And this is Darius!!

Taken on the day when he was born!!

Another baobei!!

Shall be busy visiting

one baby after another!!

i wanna enjoy my llooonnnggg weekend!!!

2010-04-02T00:21:00.004+08:00

spent the entire day at home today..

realised dat it has been

such a long time since i did dat..

it wasn't a choice actuali..

woke up wif ulcers in my mouth..

after consulting my boss, decide to c the doc..

n got a day MC for observation..

there has been an outbreak of HFMD

at the centre over the past week

if i'm a confirmed case,

it adds up to 4 cases ald..

i reali hope dat

i won't b down wif dat..

as i'm reali looking fwd

to baby kayden's arrival on sat morn!!

darling has been sweet,

wanted to buy me food

n come over to visit..

lol.. but i banned him from doing so..

as i didn't wan him to b infected..

hope dat things will b all right..

will try to blog more regularly..

sometimes i wonder..

still got people reading meh??

lol.. i doubt so bah..

hahahaha.. nvm..

juz take it as an outlet

for me to write my thots..

Juz Darling n me..

2010-03-24T10:36:00.001+08:00

it's been exactly 2 weeks le..

so fast.. n guess wat?

dearie came down yest to look for me..

n had dinner wif mama, her colleagues n me..

he gave me a precious handmade card..

touched by the effort.. n the time spent..

n the words written within..

he's been reali sweet n treating me reali well..

it's such a great blessing!!

shall enjoy the moments together!! :)

y like dat??

2010-03-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

i'm a little sad today..

perhaps sad is an understatement..

maybe the word should be disappointed..

i was wondering.. maybe i shld juz let go..

n simply move on..

but i can't.. cos u mean more to me

dan wat u think it is..

u're like flesh n blood to me..

after having gone thru

those tough moments wif u..

i dunno y u r behaving in this way..

wat hav i done wrong?

wat shld i hav done?

or maybe wat shouldn't i do?

ur silence is more deafening then it seems..

peeps, btw i''m not referring to my boyfren..

but rather u noe who u are..

bcos this post is meant simply for u!!

tutut is happily attached!! :)

2010-03-12T11:20:00.000+08:00

Gongtutut is attached!!!

Judging from the responses gathered

from facebook, msn, sms and phonecalls,

i think it seemed to b big news!!!

thankful for all the blessings n

well wishes from my beloved ones n all..

it means a lot to me..

haha like wat a fren said,

i felt as if i've juz announced my wedding..

glad n thankful to the Lord

for bringing us together..

will share more soon abt

how we go together..

poor him, got many

rounds of interview to go thru..

lolz.. let's witness the Lord's leading.. :)

u brgt a smile to my face :)

2010-03-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

perhaps things are abt to change now..

dat's so much dat i juz dunno wat to write..

i noe u are for real.. me too..

right now not many peeps noe abt it..

let's pray n ask for His leading..

when time is ripe, we'll tell the rest..

do intercede... earnestly for us..

thank u...

Be Thankful :)

2010-02-21T02:30:00.000+08:00

it's 2.35am..

lolz.. supposed to b in bed by now..

thot of counting..

n penning down..

the blessings of God..

currently going thru a major transition..

filled wif mixed emotions..

excited abt the new role ahead..

yet worried abt whether

i can do a proper handover..

whether i can teach properly..

i've onli a week to handover..

to teach the new girl :)

n coupled wif a major event

and a volunteer recruitment roadshow to handle

within the same week

till i realised i became overwhelmed..

n countenance was affected...

yet in a moment of quietness..

God reminded me..

of the many moments

whereby He brought me thru..

the time when pa and kor were hospitalised..

n i had to submit and craft out

a 1500 word assignment..

a reali tough tough one..

within a nite..

n it was Him who gave me the strength..

while shuffling to n fro..

n taking care of mum..

on dat nite..

i cried..

n asked God for strength..

to stay up thru the nite..

He gave..

i asked Him for words..

He gave..

from the conceptualization of the essay

to the words..

n i was worried dat i would fail the essay

yet when the grade came..

i noe.. it was simply a display of His grace..

Jesus was simply so kind :)

thus i noe dat now..

i can simply depend on Jesus

to bring me thru :)

thank u Father..

help me.. dear Lord..

in Jesus most precious Name

AMEN!! :)

Blessed Chinese New Year!!

2010-02-18T01:10:00.000+08:00

Harlow Peeps!!!

Blessed Chinese New Year!!!

had a very fruitful n fun time..

on CNY day 1... gathered at auntie's place..

look @ the foto..

ah ma so cute

dunno looking where..

this foto is so so precious..

one n onli one taken..

from the time we were young..

till now..

this CNY.. i'm v thankful..

to God.. for His blessings..

to celebrate CNY wif

beloved family and frens..

to renew old ties..

n celebrate the joy of frenship in His love..

the hospitality of my dear frens..

n those who came over..

it was so so fun..

n catching up..

n learning to walk in obedience..

thankful to God for keeping me..

thank u Jesus :)

2010-02-10T00:20:00.000+08:00

juz got nagged to take medicine n go to zzz :P

decide to do sth more fruitful wif my time..

dat's volunteering!!

VPO training gonna start on 6 march..

also decide to volunteer regularly @ a home

as well as pick up guitar skills

so dat i can contribute in making 'noise'

to the beneficiaries..

reali looking forward to doing all these..

other than going out.. n spending $$.. lolz

isn't dat wat makes life meaningful?

by making a difference in the lives of others..

i am looking fwd :)

sick..

2010-02-08T10:44:00.001+08:00

it's home sweet home again..

had a fun time in bkk..

but guess wat?

now i'm down wif fever, flu n a bad cough

gonna go c the doc soon

sianz on MC today

oh ya juz an update..

i've made the decision

will b moving over

to join my colleagues @ ACCESS

a wk after CNY..

say hi to starting wk later

n ending wk later

say bye to time off..

n crossing the road to work..

sobz sobz..

ok dat's all 4 now..

off 2 c the doc..

n come bk to slp..

Meet My Jogging n Kopi Kakis

2010-01-30T15:00:00.000+08:00

Harlow.. recently, i've started jogging regularly..

here, meet some of my jogging n kopi mates..

sobz.. jenny's not around..

here's lee jing, who has been faithfully

jogging wif me for the past few weeks!

keep it up gal!!

this is kelvin, look @ dat cheeky face..

rushed down to join us for dinner though

here's michael,

who hav been mtg us after our jogs..

wei, join us to jog lah..

wat a classic shot,

from the 2 gay buddies..

hahahaha

2nd chances

2010-01-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

juz came hm from a wedding dinner

@ gdwood park

love the ambience of the place..

shall post up pics tmr..

went earli in the morn 2 visit e old man

kor commented dat he looked better

when he's inside

well, since when has it not been so?

it has always been like dat..

he's coming out in may

told me the same thing

dat he will not smoke, not drink..

cos he feels dat once he start

his nonsense will come bk

if u ask me,

i am a little skeptical to his words..

i honestly hope dat

it will b true this time round

i shld give him one more chance rite?

after dat, isn't christian love

all abt forgiveness n grace?

but for someone who has hurt u

n ur loved ones

time n again, how hard it is to do so?

i pray dat He will flood my heart

wif a greater capacity

to love this man once again..

Lol.. new blog again

2010-01-28T21:59:00.001+08:00

Thot abt it for a long time..

b4 deciding to set up a new blog..

attracted by the simplicity of this skin..

dat's y decide to use it..

will keep the old one..

might juz make it private

n keep it to blogging private thots..

right now i need to make a major decn

was offered a new position today

given the weekend to think abt it..

still thinking hard whether to accept it..

shall pray abt it..

n seriously consider.. :)

test.. test..

2010-01-28T20:48:00.001+08:00

testing..